Mother May I?

Yesterday was the holiday where mom gets to manipulate the kids to the nth degree! Yep! "C'mon guys, it's Mother's Day"....."Just let mom nap"...."Pick up your rooms".....all that jazz. Funny story....this year I didn't have to ask or say anything. The kids are old enough now to actually be mindful and DESIRE to do things for me! I woke up sick so we did the best we could to go to church. I couldn't make it all the way through so we came home for a nap. They cleaned the car and were very quiet while I laid in the bed snoozing for 2 1/2 hours! Woot toot!! I woke up feeling ready to eat so as we traveled to our lunch in Forney, the kids talked sweet to me and just made me feel special! They were mindful to get along, love me, and just show me how special I am to them. We are all special to someone, but most of all God. I am so grateful to be a mom. Sometimes I still can't believe God trusted me enough with two! Wow! I know I need Him to help me raise them and I am so glad He does! God Bless!!!

Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day is rapidly approaching. Once again, I vow to overeat disgusting heart candy. I will not have my annual date with the kids on Saturday because of DI along with the fact that they will be with their dad. So....I will spend the day with a good friend. One I love. Yes, she is a she! Nosie Rosie! As I was sitting here this morning, I was thinking about being a "fool for love". Reflecting on those who have been a fool for love in my life along with times I, myself, have been a "fool for love", I smile. I smile to think of how silly I've been. I smile with desire to be a fool again. I smile to reflect on the true love I've found in God! I smile because LOVE is GOOD! Years ago, I was cynical about this silly holiday and called it simply by it's acronym. Now, however, I see this day as a true extension of every other day of the year. It is truly a day to celebrate everyone you love. With or without romance.

The true reason for this post today-my sons. My heart flutters when I think of the fool's I want them to be ONLY for the woman God created for them. So, I am sending out this special Valentine's prayer for my sons and anyone reading this who has a son....God, I pray that you teach my boys how to love like you. I pray they love their wives as Christ loved the church. I thank you for the tender spirits and gifts they were each given so freely, and I ask that you teach me to guide and direct these gifts to honor and glorify you. I thank you for being the best father they could have, and ask that you teach them to be earthly fathers as they both desire to have children. Grant them wisdom and knowledge that only you can! Bridge the gaps for the mistakes I have already made, and for gaps I may leave in the future. Place a hedge of protection around them to protect them from the fiery darts and attacks from the enemy. Teach them to be warriors against the one true enemy and not one another. Thank you, Jesus, for giving me boys. Thank you for loving us and me enough to grant me this love for my boys. Happy Valentine's Day!

Suckatash!

What does that mean you wonder? It's been a while. It's just my way of saying it's been quite some time since I've blogged. I talk about blogging. I have numerous places to blog. I encourage others to blog. I just haven't blogged myself! So the first thing I need to say is P.S. I like applesauce. That is Dayne's favorite saying. It's probably from a tv show. Regardless, he wants me to text it to my friends. Every time I am having a conversation via text, he says it over and over repeatedly. I desire to incorporate it into the conversation, but it just never seems to make sense nor does it seem funny to randomly sneak it into the message. So, here is the perfect place to release the urge...P.S.I like applesauce.

Work is good. The kids are great. I really just needed to express my true, innermost feelings.

P.S. I like applesauce.

DeOnna Gloria

has it really been that long???

We haven't posted anything for quite some time! We have been so busy! My job has consisted of several new computer installs and lots of training and being trained! Have you heard of social bookmarking? Do you want to let other people see your bookmark? Check it out at the delicious.com. You can use this site for sharing your bookmarks. Also, I have been seeing a lot of great videos on the Common Craft Show. There are so many cool things on the web that I would hang out forever on this thing if I didn't have kids! On that note, the kids are doing great! They are starting basketball season and Dayne is trying to get a DI team together. Well, I am, I guess. It is so much work that I just want to get started so I don't back out! We are so excited about this great time of year. We get to be thankful for all of our blessings and really take the time to grow in our hearts and give back to others. We will be getting some great pictures made soon and so I will post some cute pictures soon! Take care everyone!

It's time for the Fall!

So much has happened since September 7.......we have had lots of family time, soccer, hurricane talk/prayer, and family issues with crazy emotions. I began reading a book I don't want to put down only so I can start it over again. It is called The Shack and everyone in the Christian community is reading it. It has such an elaborate use of imagery, I have to re-read lines to let them soak in and gather the beauty of the words that flow from the page. I want to loan it out, so I haven't been writing in it, but so desperately I long to underline sentence after sentence. One line in particular says "if rainbows talked or flowers growing made a sound, it would be the sound of her laughter". I replaced "her" with my boy's. Now, that is truth! Who doesn't agree that your child's laughter would sound like a rainbow or a flower growing. If you disagree, then Kiss My Grits!

Truthfully, I make this blog a sweet, fun page to share with family and friends so you can enjoy our life as much as we do. Our family dynamics have changed so much since my divorce. We don't always enjoy everything. Lives have been broken and our dreams, shattered. Through these dark times, we are holding on to Jesus, crying out to Jesus, and desperately seeking to fill ourselves with unclean filth to cover the abrasive cleaning we know we need. The Shack describes our ways and His ways, and our ways are so far from His ways. I can't even imagine. I really can't. One thought the book discloses is that of the past, present, and future. Yes, we all know we worry about tomorrow and regret, and hang onto the past, but Jesus is the present. He is the here and now God. I want to be the here and now servant. How do I train my kids this way? Help me model this for them. How can I teach what I don't even know? Friends and family, pull together to seek today's gift. I need my kids to do things different and I don't know how to train them. I want to be teachable, pliable, and humble enough to know I need all that God placed around me to take it one day at a time. I told the kids I haven't been on the phone much. The reason isn't because I don't want to be, but because I don't have as many useless words to say right now. I am tired of hearing myself talk about nothing, worry about tomorrow, or dwell on the past.

One last thing. An old friend called to tell me she received Christ recently. Her enthusiasm is very apparent and we instantly retreated to our childhood sister relationship we once had living next door to one another. We talked and shared the excitement God brings, and we both teared up at what her eternal life looks like now. Then, the dreaded subject of my divorce came up. She was confused on how I could be divorced as a Christian. After giving her the long of the short of things, I found my answer. I don't know. I am a sinner and I quit. I couldn't do it anymore and when I face God on the day of judgement, I will know for sure then, what the implications of this death truly were....until then, I ask God for healing and to grow my testimony in Him so that He would be glorified in spite of me. His grace is sufficient for me. His strength is made perfect when I am weak. All that I cling to I lay at His feet. His grace is sufficient for me........

Hard to update, but lots of thoughts floating!!!

OK....where do we start? Let's go back a week and talk about our labor day fun! Who doesn't love the water? We didn't want the weekend to go by without hitting the lake so we went to the clearance isle at the local Big Lots and bought a 12 ft inflatable boat. I know what you are thinking....wow, they got a boat! Yes we did. No motor, just four sturdy plastic oars that allow us to row till our hearts are content. The kids and I were pumped! We blew up the clearance item (only $7.50) and carried it down to the "beach". As I stood at the water's edge thinking about the safety of my kids around all of the boats, I thought we shouldn't row too far out. When I eventually got myself up in the boat after pulling the kids out into the water, I also dumped in about a gallon of water. We seemed to be okay on the weight limit, but who knew the holiday weekend waves would be such a challenge to row against!!! Needless to say, the harder we worked, the more this seemed less like an enjoyable day at the lake, and more of a blur in the hot sun watching all of the real boats with motors and stuff pass us by....I decided it would be best to allow nature to take us where it led....so we proceeded to allow the waves push us into shore in the opposite direction of our belongings right into a group of drunk Hispanic men past the point of belligerence. The boys didn't even notice and began slinging mud they scooped out of the ground using the old oars as shovels! Cute. Real cute. I begin to whisper softly and row quickly away, away, away, from this unpleasant situation....We managed to escape unharmed, had a good old fashion mud fight, packed up our stuff, and came home. You can't say that we don't go out on the boat!!!

This last week, Mema came to visit. I got in real trouble today at church announcing all my laundry was done and the dinner was cooked every night-they thought I was a bad host. They don't know my Mema. If I had given her nothing to do, she would have been too bored an wanted to go back home. She did some much needed sewing and was a great after school caretaker as I worked 12-hour days!!! Friday nights Toby Keith concert was a blast because I knew I could go straight home and not have to worry about the kids! I really appreciated all of her hard work. Although I thought it was one of the worst weeks for her to visit, it turned out to be one of the best. She was so helpful, it helped her. She needs to be needed just like we all do and she talked the entire time-no one ever asked her to stop! The kids and I are great at tuning things out so we didn't mind a bit. I am privileged and honored that my grandmother who loves the Lord more than anyone I know kept me up telling me the sweetest stories of her walk with God. This week gave me moments in time I will never forget. I love my mema.

Updating the Blog...

Back to school and going strong...We have hit the new year hard and fast. This week is a whirlwind. Now, I must say I don't have too much to worry about myself being in my new department. I can't believe how much I used to do this first week of school. Don't get me wrong, it is definitely a challenge, but in a completely different way! The boys are at two different schools which makes for interesting mornings and stirs up a little bit of chaos. We are just praying Dayne gets to move with Cole and all will be right with the world! Either way, I know they are both enjoying their year so far. Short story about Cole...after putting him in time out the other day he asked how long will he have to stay there. I asked him how old he was and he said 6. I proceeded to tell him he needed to sit out for 6 minutes so he decided he was only one! Yes, that is how adorable he is which makes it so hard to train him in the way he should go. Proverbs 22:6 hasn't met Cole!

We went to the Apple store for a workshop tonight. The kids learned how to make a truly fun presentation and burned their creation to a CD. I felt like I was forcing them to be in love with the Mac when it first began, but as they went along learning, they naturally fell in love just like they all do! You can't help but love a Mac. I wonder if that's where Mac Daddy came from. Or maybe, that's why they named it Mac. I may never know the answer to this and so many other interesting questions I have! One last thought...
Maybe in order to understand mankind, we have to look at the word itself: "Mankind." Basically, it's made up of two separate words, mank and ind. What do these words mean? It's a mystery, and that's why so is mankind.
God Bless!!!